August 2012
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July 2012
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I wish I wasn’t “FAT”
Girls in my school live off of cake and junk food. While I’m over here working my ass off so they won’t make fun of me anymore. I look in the mirror and see flaws that I just want to rip right off. I seem confident but I’m very defensive. when people say things that make me feel like I used too, I quickly build a wall and fight! I wish I could brush it off like I say I do. But it sticks with me. For a very very long time. And I can’t seem to shake it off. I know I’m not every guys dream, and I know I’m not beautiful but i am STRONG. I am me. Take me as I am or don’t take me at all.
I wish I wasn’t “FAT”
I feel like I mean nothing to you. No texts, no calls, and you make no effort at all to see me. I keep thinking “maybe he’s just busy” making up excuses for him. Excuses that he absolutely doesn’t deserve. I want him to go back. Go back to the man I loved, the man that made me laugh, the man that made me love again, after all the heart-ache, after everything that had been done to me, u were always there. But not anymore. Your gone. And I miss you.
I hate myself.